One Hundred Fifty-Three Days Later

The world turned upside down
Down
Down, down, down...

I am not like I was before
I thought that nothing would change me
I was not listening anymore
Still you continued to affect me
    
I was not thinking anymore
Although I said I still was
I'd said "I don't want anymore"
Because of bad experience
    
But now I feel so different 

 Each of these
My babies
Have brought you closer to me
No longer mad like a horse
I'm still wild but not lost
From the thing that I've chosen to be
      
And it's `cause you've thrilled me
Silenced me
Stilled me
Proved things I never believed
The face on you
The smell of you
Will always be with me
 
Each of these
My babies
I will carry with me
For myself
I ask no one else will be
Father to these

It's been so lonely without u here
Like a bird without a song
Nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling
Tell me baby where did I go wrong 

I never said I was tough
That was everyone else
So you're a fool to attack me
For the image that you built yourself
    
Just sounds more vicious
Than I actually mean
I really am soft
Yes, I'm tender and sweet

Knockin' down everything I tried to build
Buyin' up everything I tried to sell
Changin' my heaven to hell

Sometimes, I wanna crash and burn my little world

Cross me once and I'll forgive you
Cross me twice and it gets hard
Cross me three times and just remember I'm no Christ

I see nothin' but darkness over my bow
I've got nothin' but reef under my frame

I try to come about, I try to move around
This siren keeps callin' my name
Someone shine a light
Shine a light so I can see
Someone shine a light
Someone give me sight

And the world turns upside down....


#MatthewandRebeccasLivesMatter


(Lyric credits to Lin-Manuel Miranda, Sinead O'Connor, and Michael Knott)